Makenzie Campbell

Pen and paper have healed me much better than any doctor ever could.

- 3:28 am

Too often do people blame their unhappiness on irrelevant outliers:

money

job

school

parents

These things may set you back, but they cannot stop you. The only reason you’re not where you want to be is the excuses that spill out of your mouth.

Those words both mended and broke my heart.

“I love you,” he said.

Yet I still can’t figure out how he can love me and leave me at the same time.

- 2:57 am

My body is cold and my mind is numb. The absence of him reeks within my thoughts.

It is felt in the goosebumps on my neck where the warmth of his lips used to prevent them. It is felt in the vacant spot in my bed where his head used to rest on my pillow. It is felt in the constant ache in my heart, the pain that sheers through, making me bleed out, not of blood, but of longing and wanting and regret.

- 2:13 am

I have a black hole in my heart waiting to be filled. I crave the taste of someone else’s lips on mine and their heart intertwined within my soul.

- 3:53 pm

I indulge myself in books because diving into another fantasy is so much more calming than living in reality.

- 8:00 am

We think that maybe this time will be different, but it won’t. You are the shore and I am the tide. We come so close to being together only to get pulled in opposite directions. Yet we continue to reach for one another, never to learn the undeniable truth…

All I’ve ever wanted is to feel wanted by him.

- 11:11 pm

I produce inward tears where my cheeks do not contain watered streaks but rather my heart is stained with the salty sadness. As my eyes remain dry, my heart grows heavy. And I have reason to believe that one day it will grow so heavy that my rib cage will no longer be able to hold its weight. It will plummet into a dark, empty void and the drumbeat of my existence will cease its song.

- 2:37 am

It’s not over.

Not for you. Not for me.

We still relive each moment as we lay our heads down to sleep..

But our faces remain as blank and empty as our hearts. Or at least how we wish our hearts to be.

Right now, our love is blistering all over that organ.

We just excel in pretending.

- 10:16 pm