Adam Silvera

history is how we get to keep him

Do you want to practice repopulating the human race?

Everything I did for him I did for me, too, because it made me happy to see him happy. That’s not obsession, you dickhead, it’s love

Love. I love you; this isn’t a past-tense love

You kept me alive when we were apart. I promise I’ll always do the same for you

Time doesn’t heal all wounds. We both know that’s bullshit

One of the lessons I’ve learned over and over since our breakup and your death is how the pain becomes physical.

don’t know what will be left of me if love and grief can’t bring you back to life. Maybe I need to be brought back to life, too.

We were something, but history isn’t enough to keep something alive forever.

This universe I’m stuck in gets worse and worse: all this history, and I can’t possibly have a future with this guy any more than I can have one with you.