i wish i knew how i felt about everything, then erased that, too.
alessahas quoted2 years ago
think you want to feel special—which is fair, who doesn’t—but you won’t allow yourself to feel special in a good way, so you tell yourself you’re especially bad.”
alessahas quoted2 years ago
I wanted people to know we were together, but only the ones who wouldn’t hurt us for it.
alessahas quoted2 years ago
i admittedly can’t quite stop talking to you but i’m pretty sure it’s just i’m so fucked up that i need a break from having feelings.
alessahas quoted2 years ago
seemed humorous that Julian could be standing to the right, looking like the rest of us, when we had stayed while he was gone.
alessahas quoted2 years ago
I was a bad person who did not know how to love.
alessahas quoted2 years ago
i thought if i let anyone in, they’d find out what was broken about me. and then not only would they know, i’d know too.
alessahas quoted2 years ago
i needed to be with julian before i could love you. i was scared the first time i had sex with him. i thought i’d be bad and he’d hate me. everything i did, i was scared. i was scared with you as well, but i was ready to be scared.
alessahas quoted2 years ago
broke up with the love of your life because you saw how much power they had to hurt you.