Yvette

very decent men there, like ourselves

She has only one possible career, a life of pleasure

From being a young girl she will take the inevitable step, quite simply. And I would like to be the pivot of this transformation.

So I am in love with her, but in a queer fashion. I have the strongest desire for her, and yet the idea of making her my wife would seem to me a folly, a piece of stupidity, a monstrous thing: And I have a little fear of her, as well, the fear which a bird feels over which a hawk is hovering