Alice Oseman

and I start to feel, again, like this whole day has been pointless

If I’m completely honest, I don’t even like music that much. I just like individual songs. I find one song that I really love, and then I listen to it about twenty billion times until I hate it and have ruined it for myself.

You like to act as if you care about nothing, and if you carry on like that, then you’re going to drown in the abyss you have imagined for yourself.”

and I imagine a voice reminding me to be funny and chatty and happy, like normal people

Sometimes I like to fill my days with little things that other people don’t care about. It makes me feel like I’m doing something important, mainly because no one else is doing it.

Sometimes I hate people. This is probably very bad for my mental health.

Tori,” says Becky, “you look a little bit like you want to kill yourself.

Gray is the theme, which is fitting for such a dull place.

but I don’t feel so different now to how I felt on Christmas Eve, or on Christmas Day, or on any other day since the Christmas holidays started. I’m back now and it’s another year. Nothing is going to happen.

“It’s funny because it’s true.”