As she reaches for the door handle, I notice her hesitate, her resolve straining, and there’s a part of me that wants to see her break. Forgive me, take me back against her better judgment, without making me truly pay for the pain I’ve caused.
And then another part wants to see her stay strong, take all the power and control I’ve harbored all this time, and do what’s right for her. Even if that means leaving me here.
When she does, I’m so proud of her, but it still hurts like a motherfucker.
Standing alone in the dimly lit room, I think about what she said. It’s not enough. I know what would be enough, but I don’t know if I have the heart to do it
This hurts on so many levels cause it is personal. YOU DON'T FKING DESERVE HER IF YOU CAN'T CHOOSE HER OVER EVERY FKING THING IN THIS WORLD.