Next summer I saw her again; she was a changed person. I, too, was ready to become that changed person who had been stirring inside me for so long already, underneath the despair, pain, and grief. The first stirring I allowed was the stab of envy when the slave girl of Achilles went off I knew not where, clasping Oenone tightly. ‘What about me? Save me too!’ I almost cried. But I had still to experience what lay in store for me: the day when I lay on my wickerwork bed in a cold sweat knowing that Hector was entering the battlefield, and knowing that he was being killed.
I do not know how it happened; no one was ever allowed to tell me about it, not even Aeneas, who was present, although I felt no concern for his safety. In the deepest depths, in the innermost core of me, where body and soul are not yet divided and where not a single word or a single thought can penetrate, I experienced the whole of Hector’s fight, his wounding, his tenacious resistance, and his death. It is not too much to say that I was Hector: because it would not be nearly enough to say I was joined with him.