The Last Time I'll Write About You

AND NOW I’M RUINED

When I met you

I always wondered

How I’d never met

Anyone quite like you

When we parted

I always wondered

How everyone else

Reminded me of you

This is how it’s going to be:

A million unanswered questions,

A thousand books you’d never ask me to read,

A hundred movies we’d never fall asleep in together,

A couple of songs I won’t hear you sing in the shower,

A few words I would never interrupt with a kiss,

A piece of you, I’ll miss every single day.

This is how it’s going to be.

I should be alright with that.

IN A NUTSHELL
I’m not brave enough to love you
The same way
You’re not strong enough to take me on.

“He was good for you.”
“I don’t doubt it.”

“Then why’d you let him go?”
“I wasn’t good for him.”

N

I told everyone

I love you

Sorry if they knew before you

To be fair,

I think everyone knew

Before I did, too.

CONSISTENCY

I don’t think you think of me

The way I think of you

For you do so only sporadically

While I have you in me

Constantly.

CAUTION

I tell myself,

Stop stepping on broken glass

But it’s too late for that.

You can’t break what’s already been torn apart.

LESSON

I’m tired of missing you

So I made a point to forget you

But it gets exhausting

Once you learn:

Forgetting is just another form of remembering.

CONSISTENCY

I don’t think you think of me

The way I think of you

NORTHERN STAR

Look up at the sky

Like once upon a time

Look up and I

Will guide you back to me.

I meant to keep you

But I didn’t want to be kept

See the problem?

t’s funny how
The thought of you makes me mad
When all along I thought
You’re the one person I’d exclude from that.
That was the problem:
I rooted for you.
And you?
You were just being you.
I expected you to spare me
Of any hurt,
Of any lie,
Thinking I deserved it.
Sometimes
I think this hate
Is not because you hurt me
Or because you lied.
You proved me wrong
And that stings more
Than all of the things
You’ve done combined.

PEACE TALKS
You realize
This war could end
If we could just
Whisper the words,
I’m sorry