In Rescue Me: Confessions of an Ex-Evangelical, Van Roberts takes us on a harrowing journey through the back rooms, no-holds-barred meetings, bottomless pits, and dumpsters of modern evangelicalism.For decades Van tried his best to be a good follower of God and instead became a great follower of man.Van wanted most to be recognized by his spiritual leaders and feel wanted. Nevertheless, his evangelical leaders ignored him,used him for their own gain,verbally and spiritually abused him,and always stood between him and the God he was fervently trying to encounter. Finally Van Roberts crashed.Over the years ahead, Van realized in his darkest moment, if God was what he had been told by the church of today, they could keep him. At the crossroads, Van decided to throw out everything he had been taught about God, Jesus and religion. If there were nothing left, including God, he would have to be OK with it. Van had to become an atheist in order to find God. And boy was God there, and had a wicked sense of humor.