Nothing has ever changed since I have been here. But I dare not infer from this that nothing ever will change. Let us try to see where these considerations lead. I have been here, ever since I began to be, my appearances elsewhere having been put in by other parties. All has proceeded, all this time, in the utmost calm, the most perfect order, apart from one or two manifestations the meaning of which escapes me. No, it is not that their meaning escapes me, my own escapes me just as much. Here all things, no, I shall not say it, being unable to. I owe … existence to no one, these faint fires are not of those that illuminate or burn. Going nowhere, coming from nowhere.