Hate to Want You

You’re not the only one who’s been carrying someone’s heart with you. I may not have put you on my skin, but you’ve always been close at hand

“Feeling like the people I surround myself with can’t accept all of me.”

This is a part of me, and sometimes the darkness comes and goes for no reason.

Because it was far easier to be kind to other people than it was to be kind to herself

You were hurt. It’s not a weakness to love someone like that. It’s not a weakness to be in pain when that love is ripped away from you.”

She wasn’t sure if she fully believed the words her therapist had given her to keep in her arsenal, but they helped. And one day, if she said them enough times, maybe she could absolutely believe them

I wanted to fight. I wanted to fight for you, and I wanted you to fight for me, and that didn’t happen, because that shit only happens in fairy tales.”

If was a word for fairy tales, not reality.

When you experience some emotion, don’t run from it or try to stuff it down. Express it.”

The man preferred to use words and leverage and silences as his weapons of choice. They left no marks. Not obvious ones at least.