Icebreaker

Can she not just be very talented? And not be sucking someone’s dick?

Looking at her makes me want to be the funniest guy in the room, so I can be the one to make her laugh

“Make me.”

“Your choice.”

In a world where I feel like I could be swept away by the waves at any moment, he anchors me. I value that, value him.

I want to look after her and I feel grateful she wants me to.

“If you make her cry, Nathan. I swear, your dick will live in a jar in my room, and I’ll make it my life’s mission to ensure you are never happy again.”

I’ve never liked the smell of honey and strawberry as much as I do now that I haven’t seen her.

“I’m fine with mistakes. I don’t expect anyone to be perfect—”

“Other than yourself.”

Rejection is scary, but so is living with never knowing what could have happened if you were honest. I think you need to communicate your feelings with him. Any relationship, friendship, or more, will not survive through all this dishonesty.

Admitting it out loud hurts. Wanting him when he might not want me back hurts. Not trusting myself to get things right hurts. Missing him hurts.