a child, I felt in awe of my big brothers. They were role models to me; more than that, inspirations. I didn’t make my choices, I made the choices I thought they would make. They loved me truly, but our power dynamic was imbalanced. I was utterly helpless in the face of their whims. If they decided to hang out with their girlfriends on a Sunday afternoon rather than stay at home and watch cartoons with me, my world would crumble, and I would be desperate, lonely and forlorn. Children must go with the tide, like the servants of feudal masters. Part of the reason they feel magic so intensely is that they hope magic will give them a level of power they do not, in fact, possess