This is about my subjective account of what it is like to have a mental illness called Schizoid Personality Disorder. Schizoid is a very rare and highly misunderstood disorder, and it seems that there is not currently another book on the market that a schizoid person has written about their own life as I have. Other than the disease, I tie in a lot of other concepts into this book which is addiction theory, spirituality, God, the devil, and how to deal with a crisis. I realize it seems scattershot, but my book follows a logical trail which describes the way in which I have come to understand the world, which is through addictions, mental illness, and spirituality.