Hold Me

I don’t want to be Julian’s helpless little pet for the rest of my life.

For just one night, I want to be the husband of her dreams.

I love him so much it hurts.

There’s no rhyme or reason to life,

can choose to live every moment in fear, or you can enjoy life.

I would’ve thought it impossible, but my obsession with her has reached a new peak since our return. It’s as if all the grief, rage, and pain inside me coalesced into one heart-ripping sensation, a feeling so intense it tears me from within.

Moving more carefully, I place my right hand on Nora’s shoulder and try to gently shake her awake. She’s turned away from me, facing in the opposite direction, so I can’t see her face to check if she’s crying.