Are you searching for yourself? I was the same way. You know, the person I used to be back in the hell of panic—I didn't want to be that anymore.

This book is an “I”-quest travel journal that ends with the fulfillment of the “I”. The journey begins amid 15 years of panic disorder and between two panic attacks, when the claws of death-frightening let me catch my breath for a moment, in the midst of miserable suffering. The writer's fate often seemed destined to be the Minotaur's dinner, but eventually he realized: if it weren't for this damn panic disorder, he might never have started searching for his “I”.

This is no fairy tale with a happy ending, and especially not just a simple hero's story—it's more of a retrospective from a source that's now panic free. A wanderer embarking on a spiritual journey, climbing out of long, long years of panic, soul-searching, and hoping to meet his aspired “I”. While the author piled dilemma upon dilemma, he was also an alcoholic (he quit, but the panic stuck around for a while longer), and during his journey he even had to battle the seven-headed dragon. To get out of the mess, he dove into the colossal and sky-high task of the “I”-quest.

Get ready, because this honest wanderer reveals it all: from physical travels to soul-searching, he takes inventory of every possible corner of existence. Come with me and let's search together for the aspired “I”. Attention, trail provisions! The author includes no map alongside his “I”-quest wanderer's journey. But if he managed to walk out alive from the captivity of panic-hell and find an “I” without panic, then you can succeed too! Yes! You absolutely can succeed too!

Hit the trail, wanderer, and dive deep! The trail provisions for the “I”-quest are ready to go.

Gabor Pallos

Books