Bunmi Laditan

An angel once told me that things grow in the sun but are cured in the dark.

I believe you have a plan, but are you painting your masterpiece with my pain?

Speak to the fear in my soul so that it might recognize your voice, wake up, rise, thrive.

DEAR GOD,

Sometimes, all the time, daily, every five minutes, I look at the world and know exactly why you flooded it.

ME

I’m terrible at being a fully grown human. You made me, and it’s been said you don’t make mistakes.

DEAR GOD,

Assuming I get to heaven, I don’t want neighbors.

ME

DEAR GOD,

I asked for forgiveness today. Please help me to be harmless. Soften my broken parts so they don’t cut those around me. The closest ones are the most vulnerable. Make me a dove.

Love,

ME

Please help me forgive.

How do I move on from who I’ve been to who I want to be?

I’ll say it because you already know I think it—I wish I hadn’t been born. This is a ride I never would have gotten on if I’d known.