As a confused young adult (or adult at this point) any profession I may pursue other than the one I actually want will be a "calling," calling with quotation marks because it's not exactly my passion but more so on the fact that if I say it long enough and lie to myself long enough it could be my calling. Without the quotation marks.
I get that the author is painting a picture but a gazillion words were summarized in this short paragraph alone.
omg cool names