Alyson Derrick

I’m just not good at opening myself up to people. I’m not good at making friends. When you spend as much time as I have worrying about what to say and how to say it and it still comes out wrong, it just becomes easier to not say anything at all

Of course I let the ties go. The casual acquaintances, the hookups, the friends I never really talked to outside
of school, keeping my personal life tucked away in a little box.

The only person I really held on to was her. Until tonight.

She said “I love you” and I stopped myself from saying it back to her. She asked me to say one thing about how much she meant to me, and I couldn’t.

I couldn’t just tell her how Saturday mornings with her are the highlight of my week.